This is what’s going on with me these days:
I’m too tired to function (apparently SO tired that I accidently wrote ‘fuck’). Which is also why I’m using an old drawing of me being just as tired a year ago.
Just one of those weeks, right?
You know those days were you just can’t seem to get around? All you can do is to just stare and ignore your daily duties or homework. You just want to be alone, don’t want people to talk to you and you get annoyed by those who do anyway. Especially the overly positive people.
A true optimist would say “Get up off the couch and seize the day!”, “Live everyday like it’s your last!” and “Look out the window, the world is beautiful!” – but truth is that everybody feels like this every now and then. Even the greatest optimist. And it’s perfectly okay.
I don’t have to mention that I have one of those days today. My boyfriend tried his best doing the before-metioned peptalk, but I was only able to snap back at him.
Then he said to me:
“Did you know that those negative days where you can’t do anything for yourself, where you think you don’t deserve anything; that’s the days where you do most for others, especially me. You give so much – it’s okay to take too.”
Words of wisdom.
One of the things that can make me happier is a stroll in the park – just get out there, suck in some fresh air (or polluted, depending on what city you live in) and clear my mind.
Lately, I can’t seem to find the ambition to get up from the couch and do this. Hell, TV-shows can make me happy too and keep me entertained, right? But television only works for a short period of time.
My boyfriend’s a smoker (eekk!) and sometimes he needs to go buy cigs – always when all the nearby stores are closed, except the farthest shop. Obviously.
He always talks me into getting off my arse and walking with him hand in hand. I always complain loudly, until we’re halfway.
Then I realise I’m finally up and off the couch. And I smile.
Now, get up and go for a walk!