A pessimistic Optimist

Dear Optimists,

I think I’ve run into a brick wall. My mood is low and I seem to have trouble looking on the bright side of life. The ideas and happiness seems to have left me.

I’ve tried all the things that would normally get me into a better mood, but without any success.

Reading causes me to fall asleep. Which also happens to be the reason why I hate hardcover books. They hurt.

Funny movies and awesome sitcoms don’t seem to affect me.

Drawing, which I love with all my heart, doesn’t make me smile as much as it used to.

(My drawing of an original painting by Павел Безруков for my cousin’s thesis on old men and football)

I even tried singing and dancing – something that ALWAYS works for me. These days it only seems to be working just for the moment. Which is better than nothing.

This is the only way of smiling I can do these days.

It could be the fact that I’ve been ill for the past month. Or that I have a shitload of oral exams this month that causes me to freak. But dear Optimists, what do you do when you hit rock bottom? What makes you smile?

Love,
Nadia.